Feeling meh

You know when all your emotions just seem to all pile up and all of a sudden you just feel really weighed down by them? Perhaps its just me though. Well recently I have started to feel this way, for a few different reasons and perhaps some unknown as well. 

Friendships have been getting me down recently. Out of my close knit friends I was the only one to go straight to university after high school. They were then all left at home working for the year. During this time I didn't get to see much of them which was understandable as home isn't very close to my university. It made me a bit sad at times as I felt I was missing out on so much with them however when summer came we all slotted back into our usual group and everything was great. This year and specifically this semester though I have been feeling the whole situation a lot more. It's made me sad thinking that we hardly see each other especially as we only live half and hour away now. In my opinion I feel like I have made more of an effort to keep in touch, though I know that I have not been great at all either. I just wish that we could all be as close as we used to be, we had so many great times. Perhaps though we were meant to drift apart a little and find some more people to be friends with. Apparently some friendships come and go. I just find it all a bit sad. 

Last August saw the very sad passing of my Grandpa which was very hard for the family and still is. My Grandpa did a lot for me, some things that when I was younger I probably didn't appreciate as much as I do now. Now I can see how he helped me with things I wanted to achieve and I appreciate  everything so much. With a death though there is always a lot to sort out. The ongoing thing at the moment is sorting out all of my grandpas and my grannies things from the house. Everyone is of course aloud things of my grandparents and it's sorting out who is getting what that is that prolonged task at the moment. I keep getting asked what I would like and I never have an answer. It's hard. I feel like everyone is getting too caught up in all the 'who is aloud what' and 'how many things' type thing. I'm not even really interested anymore. I can't get into it at all because something about it just feels so wrong. Even though it does have to be done...It's probably because I still can't quite believe he is gone. 

Exams are another stress at the moment. I just keep worrying too much about them that studying then becomes this big impossible task. I have always been a really crap studier. There has never been a method to my studying which is probably part of the problem. I just want some really good grades and I want to be able to make my parents proud with them. I myself want to be proud of them. It seems so impossible though. I've not had drastically bad results in the past but they have never been as good as I wanted. Whenever I feel like the exam went well I never do well. I think I just need to stop worrying so much and get down to it. You can only try your best!

Well i'm not sure whether to post this or not. I don't know if  i'm quite confident enough to put my emotions out there to the world yet. I haven't even properly managed to explain my feelings. That's part of my problem, I find it hard to explain how I am feeling.

Anyways here we are.

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Missguided haul :)

Yaaay my Missguided order arrived today! Had some birthday money left over and hadn't bought anything in a while, so decided to have a splurge. I started by looking through the sale section, not really expecting to see much, oh how wrong I was! Was a little disappointed when my package arrived though and a few things didn't fit. However I was happy with the items that did fit. I generally really like Missguided and they are probably my most used online shop. Personally I have never had any problems with quality and everything arrives pretty quickly.

So here are all the things that I have decided to keep from what I got. 

This is a mint green midi skirt in a crepe material

This is just a plain grey dress which comes in  a little tighter just under the bust 

This is a playsuit, it looks pretty baggy here but when on it is very fitted

Was wearing this one today, its a long t-shirt and dress combo

This is a pale pink faux leather back pack

Side view

Love all these things a bought, getting ready for summer, fingers crossed the weather is good so I get the chance to wear these lots! 

x

What I did today

(First of all this was meant to have been put up last night, ran out of time though so here it is now!)

I've had a really bad cough recently and so have had trouble sleeping for a while now. So today I slept in and didn't get up to just before 11am! To be honest my day wasn't that exciting and I didn't really do much haha. 

I mainly just revised, though perhaps not that successfully...I find it so difficult to revise, I get distracted and bored waaaaay to easily. Anybody else find this happens to them? I also keep thinking about the exams and get freaked out that I don't know anything and that I will fail. This is obviously not the way to be thinking and certainly doesn't help my revision. If people have any good tips on studying I would love to hear them!

One nice thing I did do today was baking! I making some amaaaazing cookies, so yummy. The recipe I used was the triple chocolate cookie recipe from the blogger Tanya Burr's book 'Love, Tanya'. Won't tell you the recipe because don't want to give away whats in her book, but the recipe is really good. Has anybody else made this recipe? How did they turn out?

This photo does not do them justice!

Anyways that was my not so exciting day today! Hope everyone has had a good day :). 

x

Any help?

Hey there peoples :)

Just a quick wee evening note to ask a wee favour! 

Seeing as I am very new to blogging and very new to actually even using the website, I was wondering whether anybody out there would be able to spare a few seconds to give some advice? 

It doesn't have to be in depth at all, just maybe some pointers on how I can make my blog look better, as in how would I go about doing this? Maybe if I should have anything else on my blog?

Shall try put this simpler haha. How would I go about creating a more unique blog design? Keep looking at other blogs and seeing how nice they look and think to myself would be nice if mine was nicer! Not that it bothers me that much as I am still getting to grips with it all. It would be nice though to make something personal rather than using one of the websites own designs :). 

Any other general blogging advice is welcome, help a newbie out! 

Thanks muchly! 

x

Fun in the sun!

So at the moment I am at home revising for my university exams! Teaching for me finished last Tuesday so its been great being home for a bit, especially as it is sunny :). The good thing also is that my boyfriend was up for a bit as well and so I got to spend some time with him as well. 

The other day we decided to make the most of the lovely weather and take a trip down to the lovely beaches near me. Hate to brag but we do have some amazing beaches down where we live! We bought some food for a picnic and headed out in the car. I loved the drive down their, it's all single track roads and the scenery is so nice. We did have to stop a few times for some cheeky photo snapping, felt a bit like a couple of tourists at times haha. 

This photo is looking out at the Isle of Jura :) 

Eventually however we did arrive at the beach and it was so nice :). Also because it was day where most children were in school and adults at work it meant that we had the whole beach to our self's! Was sooo peaceful.

Then another day my sister, mum, boyfriend and I helped my dad in taking his sailing yacht through the canal that I live beside. Was again a really nice day, which was unusual as normally when we do this job the weather is horrible! So my boyfriend and I helped by opening and closing the lock-gates and were rewarded by pizzas made on the boat. What a great bribe dad haha! After having got to the other end of the canal and out into the sea, we went for a short sail. Sailing is something I really like and so it's great when there is an opportunity to do so. I am also really lucky to have the opportunity to do this as I know people who have never been sailing, which always seems crazy to me!

I have had such a good time over the past week, the weather playing a big part as I wouldn't have been able to do anything of these things in crap weather. Now though I suppose I have to get down to some studying and ignore the lovely weather if I want to pass these exams.. I am groaning as I write this. 

I would definitely recommend visiting the west coast of Scotland at some point in your life, if you have not done so or to come again if you have! It's just a beautiful part of the country and you will be missing out if you stay away! If anybody has been before, where have you visited? 

x

New beauty purchases

Though this blog not a beauty blog and though I am not an expert in beauty, it is still something that I like a lot and so have decided to tell you about my recent beauty purchases. 

I go through stages where I buy loads of clothes and then generally I switch to makeup and other beauty products. These stages both have one thing in common, I always end up spending more money than I should... 

This time round instead of going to the shops I went online and browsed through reviews and talked to friends and then started shopping on the Debenhams website. I chose Debenhams basically because I have one of their beauty point cards and also due to the fact that they have loads of different companies and so you can get everything you want in one place. 

So the first of my purchases was the Urban Decay 'all nighter makeup setting spray'. It says on the bottle that is is oil free and paraben free. Now because I have never tried this before got the smaller travel size which is 30ml and this was £9.00. This product was recommended to me buy a friend after I asked her about it when seeing her using it. Before this I was being rather bad and using the classic hairspray to try and make my makeup last longer. This is obviously not good for your skin at all! I love this setting spray though and I see a real difference when I use it, especially on nights out when I really want my makeup to stay. One time I sprayed before I realised that I had a dot of mascara under my eye. I tried to just wipe it off quickly with my finger as I was in a hurry (this would normally work) however this time time it didn't! I would totally recommend this product :). 

Another item from Urban Decay was the 'b6 vitamin infused complexion prep spray'. Also on the bottle it says that it is redness reducing, pore minimising and oil absorbing. I again bought the 30ml and this was £10.00. This is used after washing the face and before moisturising, so like a toner. I really liked this product and definitely think that it reduces redness. For me I also think that it is oil absorbing as I have medium-oily skin and can sometimes find that as the day goes on my skin gets a little oily. Since I have started using this product however this has been reduced and I mostly have an oily shine free face.

The next product is from MAC cosmetics and is their Bronzing Powder. I purchased this in 'refined golden' which was £21.00. Before this my favorite bronzer was the Benefit 'Hoola', however now I would say that this is. It isn't too dark which is what I like in a bronzer and is also has nice shimmery bits through it giving you a nice glow. I use this for mainly just bronzing up my cheeks a bit but also for contouring in some places. The powder comes off really easily on my brush though I have read that some people have had problems with that, so perhaps something you would want to bear in mind if you were going to buy this. I however have had no problems, it's been great.

My last purchase was also from MAC and was their 'Complete comfort creme' at £25.00. Now I really love this moisturiser! I often find that moisturisers I buy feel way to thick on my skin and I just have an icky feeling that they are clogging my skin up. This 'Complete comfort creme' is really lightweight and my skin absorbs it so well. I don't feel like you need to use a lot of this product which is great as it will last a lot longer, which I always like! After using this though my face is soooo soft and I can't help but to stroke my face, especially on a day like today when I'm not wearing makeup. Been stroking all day haha. Another good thing is that it doesn't make my face oily and so also helps in keeping my face shine free throughout the day. 

Hope you all liked and maybe found even a little bit of help here! 

Thanks for reading :) 

x

Student probs

So being a student I feel like I should be saving my money. This however never goes well for me. I always seem to be spending money. Just unnecessary amounts. I will go food shopping with my flatmate and always without fail I will buy more and spend more than her. Going round the shop I just pick everything off the shelves that I feel like eating in that moment. Probably not the best thing to base your weekly food shop on. Doesn't help that we always seem to go when I am hungry and so my brain isn't being too logical...

I also seem to have a lack of self control when it comes to clothes shopping. I mean when I enter Topshop I have good intentions of 'just having a look' but end up coming out with a bag full and a dent in the bank. The thing is I try to feel guilty but can't quite manage it, why should I anyway?

Being a student has ruined me I feel. I used to be a real saver before heading off to uni. Now I don't think that much when it comes to parting with my money. Probably because living in the countryside at home there were no clothes shops and shopping on the internet was a pain. Therefore coming to uni was like entering a new world, one with everything you could want at your fingertips. I blame my parents for not taking me to roam the shops more often as now I am a shopping monster.

To conclude never think that when you go to uni you are going to be oh so careful with your money. It never happens. You get there and almost instantly forget the carefully thought out financial plans. Students never have money to spend yet they spend it anyway.

We like to have a lot of fun. All the time.  

x

Easter Weekend

Hi everyone!

So being at uni I don't get to come home that often due to being so busy and also just due to the cost of traveling back home. However seeing as it was Easter weekend I made a special effort to make the long journey back home. I say long but it is only just around 3 and a half hours and I know some people have a lot longer of a journey so i can't complain too much (still do though). I was super excited to being coming home anyway because I live in such a beautiful part of Scotland (west coast) and so couldn't wait to be back there with my family again! Also because it was Easter I was hoping that perhaps there was something chocolaty waiting for me haha.

I do love Easter just because it is such a family time and in my family we always do something nice together, which I appreciate even more now that I live away from home most of the time. Living on the west coast of Scotland we are blessed with so many amazing beaches which I miss when I am away at Uni due to Stirling being right in the middle of the country. What better way to spend Easter then than going to one of these lovely beaches!

                            (forgot a normal camera as well as the polaroid, uploaded these anyway)

Just being on the beach and breathing in the fresh air makes me feel a whole lot better. So we (Mum, Dad, Sister, 2 dogs and I) took a wander along this deserted beach just messing around in our usual fashion which was really nice. Especially as we had the whole beach to our self's.  After spending a while on the beach we hopped back in the car and started on our way home only to then stop off for some lunch in a really nice cafe. I had a mountain of chilli nachos which were amazing and soooo filling.

This weekend has been one of the best in a while just because I am home with my family. Its great how even a short trip home can make you feel so much better and relaxed. Only one disappointment is that we never rolled eggs this Easter! This was purely down to being so unorganised and not having any eggs in the house... However in the end it didn't really matter and I had such a nice Easter Sunday.

Byees x